I am so sorry, oliver.  (   olivercharlcs.   )

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                   fingers are clutching at the fabric of aiden’s shirt, his eyes clenched shut as he sobs UNCONTROLLABLY. his chest is clenching & his throat is SEARINGLY hot from all the screaming he’s done upon the discovery of his love’s body l i f e l e s s upon the bedroom floor. then aiden’s voice carries through the emptiness of the room & he FREEZES. he turns up to glare, ANGER & g r i e f driving his response. aiden’s pale & floating—looking just like tj did when he first saw him. he’s growling, standing to his full height, ❝ AIDEN——COKE why…why DID y’do t h i s ? why didn’ y’fuckin’ THINK ? why don’ y’ever THINK ? you ‘ave a DAUGHTER ! and y’have me…why don’ y’ever think, aiden…? ❞ he trails off, hand outstretched & phasing through aiden’s g h o s t l y figure. 

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            there’s a disconcerted look on his facial features when a hand goes through his opaque figure. it felt weird, & very uncomfortable. he shifts back as he pats his CHEST, curious as to why his own hands don’t phase through him.  ❝  i —— – i got some awhile back ! it wasn’t even that much considering i used to do twice this much when i was YOUNGER ! i didn’t think i would DIE because of it !  ❞  there it is. the REAL realization of his death. it didn’t sink in until just now, considering he’s been dead for a good hour or two. ❝  holy shit, i really am DEAD. oh my god, oh my fucking god what have i done ? no no no, this can’t be happening.  ❞  he ran his hand through the raggedy lock of red hair, & despite not needing to really breathe he was on the brink of hyperventilating.  ❝  no, oh god no, i have a daughter now i —— – i can’t just DIE ! ❞